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2008-10-15T02:18:00.000-07:00

oh, yep.
i'm back.

feeling kinda weird these days.
it's just like times when you're down.
okay, i admit, i'm feeling kinda blue.
results isnt really the source, but, i guess it's the exhaustion.
i believe it's been a month since i last relaxed.
eh no, perhaps a year now.
i felt like a company whose business went busted.
it's like the end.
no happy endings.
just... empty.
no climax, no plot.
the end.

i wanted so much to have a good, long rest.
now that i have it already,
i really cant believe it.

ohh well, i just its time for me to hit the bed and sleep.

enjoy the rest of your day!

( i'm so not gonna post here anymore,
but you can visit my new blog: http://masqueradefun.livejournal.com/)

2008-09-11T02:26:00.001-07:00

hohoho(:

i'm changing blog soon.
ya wanna know the address?
haha, nope,
i wont give.
people out there are watching...

well actually,
i've created one already, at livejournal.
so..
http://masqueradefun.livejournal.com/

(:
see,
i'm a good person.
i've decided to give it out anyway...
:P

i'm so not gonna type anything emo on that blog
this blog makes me kinda sad.
cos i've typed countless of emo posts.
being happy is so much better than being emo.
yep, so i've decided to move.
(:

you guys can still come here if you want,
ya know,
read all of my past posts stuffs..
( see, i know what you're thinking )
...
...
...
(oh, maybe not)

so,
i've made up my mind,
i'm so not gonna be sad anymore(:

goodbye(:
takecares(:

2008-09-09T22:57:00.000-07:00

i'm always so into piano whenever the exams are nearing.

somehow,

it actually made me think better(:

aiya,

evan can see a picture of cs2.

my piano teacher can see a picture of my exam song

how? i cant.

i cant see music.

i can only feel.

saded..

today was another chaotic day at school

i feel so odd at times, it's my attitude.

i have this attitude problem and i dont know how to settle it.

when i keep quiet, i'll get bored.

when i talk, others will say i'm sickening.

either way, i really want to be happy and fit in.

but, no one wants to talk.

gone are the days in sec one.

maybe it's my childhood.

my parents were always the serious type.

they never joked at all.

until my sister came.

gosh, i thought my parents wouldnt be biased.

at the very least, please, not them!

people are judgemental, especially in our country.

they see your weakness, not strength.

how true luh.

i admit i'm like that too.

i flipped through the pages of the photo album we have at home, and..

i realised,

i never smiled.

i should be happier.

but every single time,

something happens.

everyday's a good day

JESUS HEALS!

i'm cured of my cough

praise God!

2008-09-09T01:25:00.000-07:00

HELLO(:

i'm happy! (:
PRAISE GOD!
i'm excited too...
i cant wait till the exams are over.
lots of stuffs going on(:
oh gosh, i'm just so happy!

i just watched a youtube video and there was this young boy who was super good at the piano.
gosh,
i mean,
i'm impressed.
how do they practice huh?
my fingers always seem to lack the strength and agility..

oh well,
i shall ask my teacher.(:

2008-09-06T01:55:00.000-07:00

oh shucks.
guess what, i'm sick again.

rmb the stupid doctor i went to the other time?
the one that said that playing the saxophone can make you ill?
yeah,
he said the same thing again.
-.-

what.
lets talk about band prac yesterday cos i didnt go today..
stupid flu luh.

okay.
we had sectionals. okay, i admit i really dont know how to teach other people...
allison, where are you?!
ow man.
then, full band.
usual stuffs//

okay, okay, i admit, band without yensheng feels...

.

.

.

.

kinda weird.
i was so damn patient with the juniors yesterday luh(:
if yensheng were around, i'd erupted.
lunchtime was a total blast.
my memory had better not fail me.
allison, zhexi, daryl, nic, yanting, wanted me to help them buy lunch.
lucky got yitian, or else i'd taken a longer time to buy(:
full band.
i'm sorry chelsea, i promise you that after the exams i'm really really gonna work hard on my sax and not disappoint you.

(:

had sectionals,
i coached chelsea on ___________.
(:
she got the running notes all right!
yay! i'm so happy luh.
cos i took like, 1 hour + on those notes D:

p.s
librarians rock okay?

we went to photocopy scores after band.
our very first library outing?
haha.
we met jewel, sheena, hosin, zhengshu, andy at the bus stop.
some of us got onto 188.
and then jewel said she's following us to photocopy scores(:
and, and
the place where we're going to photocopy our scores right,
charman lives near there!
so, we took 302 after we took 188.

reached the place,
went to macs.
then charman said she have to go ..
then the rest of us talk, talk, talk..
sent songs.
and, and
we met a very weird guy in red at macs.
he was like..
gay?

ahah
then, justin smsed.
lol?
you'll never know what we did//

~~secret!~~

2008-09-02T23:35:00.000-07:00

gosh
p.s librarians rocks!
we finally got the pages back into tha book lah. (:

yeah, back on the topic i wanna talk about.

it's officially .......

over.
i'm ..
devoid of feelings. i cant feel anything anymore.

i thought i'm good at that luh.
now?
it's kinda hard to hide those goose bumps.
i thought i told myself i'd wait till 20.

is my blog dead or what?
i've been updating ( faithfully(: )
but, hardly anyone come to stop by and actually read them.

help.

i seriously should stop being so emo in my blog.
but, except my blog, where else can i talk about life?
i hurts deeply, hiding all those stuffs. i really want to spit them all out.
but, where?
it starts to get a little tense in secondary school. i long for a best friend here in swiss. i miss jacqueline...
everything here is sensitive. i can talk about things freely as i like it. i'm bound to get critisized by the rest. yeah, i have lots of friends. but, to find someone truly for me is really difficult.
no one ever notices when i'm sad. they'll just walk past, like how millions of the others had done.
maybe i'm just crazy. maybe i'm just plain un-enthu. maybe i'm too serious.
no one ever bothers these days.
i'll feel alone.
getting things done as quickly as possible had since becomed a tall order.
i cant help it. my mind is always somewhere else.
no one ever bothers when i'm having a headache. or just a mild cold.
day and night,
my hands are icy.
my backache has reached an all high pain.
my headache never found a cure, no one bothers.
24/7
it's there all the time.
claiming to be my best friend..
where are you now?
this time it's over.
for real.

why bother getting top marks for exams.
i've been aiming for that top spot.
but, come to think of it, after that,
what'll i do?
it's empty deep down inside.
talking about emptying the insides full of emotions.
now,
i simply cant.

run, run.

run where?
i long to see that huge green pasture, where i'd race all day.
and come home till the cows come home.

stupid devil.
you get out of here.

i want to be happy again.

yeah, maybe later..
when i've gotton my daily dose of life.

2008-08-31T23:16:00.000-07:00

oh gosh
i'm starting to feel a lil' queasy about the exams.
esp geog. there isnt enough tests yet for me to have a grasp of the subject.
it's official.
i dont like exams!
they just reduce you into a horrible mess of quivering nerves.

ok, enough of that.

let's talk about yesterday. 31/8/08
i went to church in the morning!
finally, i can understand what the pastor is saying. cos most fo the time, my mum is late and i missed the front part of the service.
so, as we were walking towards the church, my mum saw her pri school friend( which is in the same church as well.) then i told my mum ," she really is indeed ur friend. same as you, always late." :P ok, sorry, kinda rude lah. but my mum just laughed along.

i went to the coffee shop after the service to buy lunch while my mum went to ntuc. yep, we're having a lit meeting @2.
guess what, no one's early! haha, it's so typical of us. yingda's always the earliest lah. followed by yongyi. and yeah, dont talk about jiajun. he's always the latest.
shaoyi and victor cant make it.. so yeah, we proceeded on anyway.

after discussing, we went to play badminton.
quite exhausting i must say. with 2 persons trying to retrieve the shuttlecock on top of the shelter...
hahahahahahahaahahahahahhahahaahhahahaha
at first when we started playing, it was still quite okay luh...
then.. i dont know who arh, hit the shuttlecock so hard that is flew into the drain. hahaha... then, the person went to pick it up.
freaking hilarious luh.
( sorry arh, i cant remember who hit that first drain shuttlecock. either yongyi or yingda)
then, yingda had to leave.
appox total no of shuttlecock hit into the drain: 5

later on, yongyi volunteered to be the net for me and jiajun.
whoa, so tall?! play anyway..
yeah, and then i was the one who kept hitting the shuttlecock into the drain...
thanks for helping me pick the shuttlecock! (: to the two of you.

oh, did i mentioned that yongyi hit the shuttlecock onto the shelter?

yeah, he did.

THE PROCESS OF TAKING IT DOWN:

1. yongyi attempted to carry jiajun up the shelter
2. failed..
3. 2nd attempt!
4. cannot.
5. 3rd attempt
6. cannot
7. 4th attempt
8. finally...
9. i passed the racket to jiajun.
10. the shuttlecock came down.

lol,
hilarious.

then, jiajun wanted to practice his commands..
i went upstairs..
he went a few blocks away..
and, and!
i can hear him!
but,,,
i cant make out what he's saying...

2008-08-28T23:39:00.000-07:00

HOHO
i came to post again!
hm.. well, i guess i wont be coming here regularly during the holidays.
i'm so gonna MUG.

oh yeah.
<-----LOOK!
i changed the music player.
haha...
well, i really love the carpenters(:
and, and!
i really sing a lot nowadays..
i'm trying to train my voice(:
cos i know i'm not really good at expressing myself through words, so,
i'm gonna play music(:

2008-08-28T22:55:00.000-07:00

oh gosh,
i failed geog?
impossible. definitely impossible. i'm gonna haunt down the geog teacher after holidays.
look, how can i possibly get 33?
impossible.
impossible.

my chinese, i must definitely work even harder. that's a C6.
ART,
well, i'm definitely not gonna take art, so... i'll try my best anyway.

i feel so guilty suan-ing jj.
sorry luh...
but, but!
i got 77 for english!
but then again, your maths and science are better.

oh sheesh,
maybe i should had never went to shanghai.
i missed the maths test on pyramids. my strength! i could had gotten full marks for that.
science, well, i admit i was too tired to study more indepth for the test.

lit,
quite happy? (:
wahaha. i'm not revealing my marks.(:

oh yeah, i went to the website for the prospective job thingy.
there they wrote: science teacher.
NO!!!
i want to be a musician! or maybe a piano teacher!
i told my mum my results and she forbid me from being a musician
" girl arh, there's no market for musicians"
WHAT.
what's the point of doing sth that i dont like?
i dont mean that i dislike science, but, for now, i wanna do well in science cos i wanna get into triple science.
why?
i dont know, i'm like studying because i have to study.
afterall, i'm a student and i'll have to do well in studies.
so, i guess thats the end of the carreer talk i'll be having with my mum until i complete A lvls.

sp is sad today.
and he wouldnt tell me why.
oh sheesh, i think he's angry with me. cos he wouldnt tell me.
well, i guess i shouldnt probe any further. otherwise he'll think that i'm annoying.
but, but...
we're friends..

2008-08-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

hello(:
i'm bored, so i'd thought i'll stop by.
my parents and my sis are at the doctor's. apparently, my sis complained of constant tired-ness and my mum decided to bring her to the doctor's. PRAISE GOD! my sis is healed! (:

he's still ignoring me.
i'm sorry luh..

okay, next.

i havent been practising my piano for quite some time now. and i played it just now. Em, i definitely got to say that my hands didnt had any strengh. hah, that explains the always-press-wrong-key syndrome i had when talking to my friends in msn.

argh! no! i'll keep thinking about sp.
okay, okay.
it'll always feels awkard whenever the both of us talk.
sigh.
things arent the same anymore?
maybe i'll act ignorant. NO. maybe i'll pretend that nothing has never happened.
NO.
gosh, this wont do.
what should i do?

i miss talking to my friends. esp JACQUELINE.
she isnt coming back to south view tommorrow.
how sad..
so, i think i'll not go as well. haha, it's pointless to go back and not see your WORLD'S BEST FRIEND.

oh, how i missed her!

2008-08-28T02:39:00.000-07:00

hello world!
i'm feeling kinda moody once again.
sigh.
i hate my attitude. i'm always saying the wrong stuffs that offend people.
but, i really dont mean it...

even sp is kinda ignoring me. crb is funny, bubbly as usual.
sometimes, i really feel invisible, just like how i felt during p6.

everytime i talk, i'm ignored. maybe i'm just paranoid.

oh yeah, i've got a new best friend!
guess who?
my SIS! i realised that i've been telling her all of my secrets( cos she wouldnt understand anyway). i've been telling all the stuffs that goes on in school, who are my friends, and the people i dont like.

2008-08-25T00:33:00.001-07:00

gosh.

i finally had a wee-bit of time to post in here.

kinda moody these days.

my sis is sick. i hope she gets well soon..

she looks horrible..

things are still the same in school. with that half of the class, life just got weirder.. i wonder why are they like that. i kinda... hate it. it's disgusting.

oh well, here i am thinking that they're weird and there they are thinking that i'm weird. maybe i'm a lil' old-fashioned, talking about being conservative here. well, generations changed. some teens will never respect the tradition, or even respect their elders.

i read readers' digest just now. and, i realised that i'm been too domineering, too stressed. i'm been trying to change, trying to relax, honest. but, all the methods involved had proved to be unsuccessful.

how can i possibly relax when the juniors cant even play the basic pieces? how? you tell me. how can i possibly relax when i know they are not even trying their best? it hurts. terribly. i've been racking my brains, day and night, to help them absorb the technniques and playing styles. gosh, now what'll i do? i'll try to control my temper. but what have they done? tremple all over me. they'll only stop when i shout. where's the disapline? gosh. what's the point of getting angry and having a few stands of white hair in return?

i'm worried. a worry that you'll never understand.

2008-08-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

wow.
wow.
i'm disapppointed.

hah, what an irony.

why?
where?
when?
how?

tell me. what has happened to this generation. it's weird. too weird.
i'm amazed. where are the manners?

2008-08-16T21:56:00.000-07:00

yay! i've got a bit of time here. i've been studying uh-kay? well, actually no.

i'm kinda angry nowadays. i wonder why. i'm going mad i suppose.
i dont know why i cant let go, or trust people to do the job for me.
help//
i got so mad at some of the percussionists yesterday.
well, thanks for ruining my career as a musician.
you made me deaf.

gosh, why am i so mad. gotta calm down//
vhyj coming later. and, and! my house is in a mess. homework, worksheets are all over the place.

i know i may be fierce luh. i have my reasons.
i'm just scared, scared of losing everything. i've tried letting go, but it failed.
i cant just let my music project die. i cant trust shaoyi to do it, cos she dont know what i want. i'm just like a child. i want this and i want it now.
so, i think i'd better do it.

urgh. i'll tell you what are my weakness.
1. i cant trust anyone.
2. i'm a perfectionist.
3. i'm afraid of losing everything
4. to get away from the reality of it all, i'll sleep.

ihavehugeproblems. andIneedtochange.

2008-07-28T03:39:00.001-07:00

hello(:
i really enjoyed today, thanks to the lit and public speaking lesson.
i really love english!
but, but,
my dream subject combi is triple science.
oh no, lynette, i really want to join you in lit, but, but, i seriously want triple science as well...

lots of ppl pon-ed the public speaking enrichment. too bad they missed out so much.. today's lesson was so fun lah! my hald of the class had only 5 ppl who came. out of 19.
unbelievable, i'm really disappointed in my class.
i seriously hope that i'll get into a class next year with all the ppl who are interested in learning.
better still, have all the ppl in band that are my friends(like: lynette, zhexi, daryl, xuanwen, howard, etc)
that'll be great.

haha,
i'm so evil..

2008-07-21T21:40:00.001-07:00

cough.
can't sing!

2008-07-21T21:02:00.000-07:00

i'm not at school today.
fever.

i think i tired out myself too much. all the homework. the stress.
can you imagine 10 over pieces of homework being fired at you in one day even though you haven finshed your last week's assignments? sick. crazy. mad. what are you'all trying to do? i asked whether is there's anymore hw.. " no more ler!"
yeah, i believed you.
then, the next period, teacher say," hand in your compre!"
i was shocked. YOU OWE ME BIG TIME.
now, i've got a dozen homework uncompleted.
yongyi's way ahead of me.

help!

i havent got time.
piano. theory. band. school. maths enrichment. public spaeking. housework. laundry. floor. clothes. ironing.
when can i have time to play guitar??
please, stop. i cant do all these on my own.
art. music. D&T. lit. chinese test. maths test.

maybe going to shanghai wasnt a very good idea.
i missed one week of school.
one week of fun.
one week of studies.

more project work.
why am i always doing them alone?
help me please.
minjee, qijiang? can you do something to the D&T project? i'm sick of doing all these all the time.
yeah, you promised me you'll do...
where?

2008-07-14T06:23:00.000-07:00

hello ppl
paiseh now type in very broken english.
i'm now in the com room they have in here the hostel.
quite nice lah
the china students are having their holidays and we can stay in their hostel.
i just got sabo-ed by yong yi lah
you can ask him when we get back
and btw, we sleep very early here. like 9? yesterday.........
the food is super oily

2008-07-10T01:21:00.000-07:00

i love blasting the phone with click five's songs.
hah!

so tired todayy;
should had slept earlier yesterday or sth.
when i got home and i looked in the mirror, i realised that i look older when i'm tired.
gosh, i really must sleep earlier..

am i very fierce?
jerome seemed afraid of me.
please, please, dont... i'm scared too when you guys think i'm fierce.

i got my blazer, finally!
quick, what so you guys want me to get when i'm in shanghai?
deadline's tmr.
now, after getting the old blazer from school, i've to get a white skirt, and white heels.
hmm, anyone have the heels? i think i can get the skirt myself. but white heels is kinda hard to find nowadays...

2008-07-09T02:24:00.000-07:00

yay!
freedom. i dont have anything impt going on at school today.. and yes, i dont feel so tired anymore.
kinda excited for band practices as usual. gosh, i'm glad i still love band. it's tragic to see people dropping off half-way. c'mon, i think i'll still join band when i'm in JC. now, where will i go.. i'm considering lah. here are my choices:D

1. ACJC
2.ACJC
3.ACJC
4.ACJC
5.ACJC
6.{ well, still the same! (:}

i'm kinda happy these few days. to tell you the truth, i really dislike sitting beside qijiang. i really wonder how rivario and wayne endures him. qijiang is always singing songs that i dont really know. and... well, i'm bored. oh yeah, BTW, i only listen to click five songs(: i guess i'm happy cos qijiang is changing seats in class, when it is not maths.

i think i want to work hard now. it's time anyway.
enough slacking already..
gosh, i'll be off like.. on sunday?
quick people, tell me what u want me to get for you in shanghai!
eh, seriously, i dont really wanna to go. and then, in the next moment, i want.
gosh, i dont want to miss band practice!

i need to train my loud-ness in play the sax.
hmm, still poundering on how should i go about it.
hope i'll get it soon. :D

2008-07-02T23:22:00.000-07:00

haha,
i love minjee! (:
we were talking as usual..
and i told her i wanted to cut my hair.

lx : should i cut a fringe?
mj: yeah!
lx: erm.. like xiu ming arh?
mj: yeah! haha..
lx: but how to tell the hair dresser i want a fringe like xiuming?
mj: erm.... BRING XIUMING ALONG!:D

goodness.
i kept laughing.(:

2008-07-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

hello !
i think i'll keep updating once a week.
i'm seriously trying very hard to keep up with friends, primary school and BAND!

yay!

gosh,
i think i'll really miss all of you when i pass out lah.
and it's...
2 years left.

work hard and dont give up LanYu.
i'll be there if you need any help.
(:

2008-06-27T07:01:00.000-07:00

mood: tired):

gosh,
its the first week of school and i'm exhausted.
so many things to complete and clarify.

growing up is kinda tough.
i uncovered some ugly truths in a week.
a feat?
heck, no.

the rapture is coming.

oil prices soar like mad.
if soar any higher, i'll take the bus to school.
school's got a couple of black sheeps.
if i see anyone smoking infront of me again,
i'll scream.

there's band tmr.
i hope ppl will work hard.

2008-06-25T00:28:00.000-07:00

i dont know?
stupid.
i've been typing all these stupid complaints to somebody that i've not named.

gosh,
jiajun told me something today.
sorry lah.
i'm still worried.

stupid.
i think i should just stop shouting.
nobody hears me lah.
i called, " DUMB!" so loud today and he didnt hear me.
i was obviously.....
-.-
alfred!

i simply feel like a fool.
how?
keep quiet?
gosh, and be mistaken for some dumb, quiet, nerd.
help.

i have to say this now.
amethyst, jiakai, madeline came back.
but, i was disappointed that they've forgotten about us.
yeah.

why am i always behind?

sometimes, i really hate the seniors.
and then,
after a few minutes,
i'm back to normal again.
i'm sorry.

alfred, and the rest.
i didnt dare to be mean to thomas.
he's strong in a way he ignore your insults.
if you were him, could you stand all that?

2008-06-25T00:06:00.000-07:00

to tell you the truth about yesterday..

i wasnt really excited about the sec fours coming back.
well, for reasons that i cannot show...

well, at least i know some of them dislike me..

2008-06-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

-.-
i think i have a problem.

well, yes...
again.

right now, i think i have this huge chromosomes problem.
my mum had always told me that i have most of my father's genes.
yep? and then...
someone once told me that if i shave away all of my hair...
.
.
.
.
i'll look like a boy.

gosh?
心碎掉了

yeejin said i'm little weird, but not to the extreme.
.
.
.
.
*sobs*

get the idea?
they're saying that i'm a guy.
which, i really dislike.
well, my close friends are girls!
and then...

i really dont know what to do.

could you just stop giving me that look?

2008-06-23T00:36:00.000-07:00

hello(:
i'm bored. and msn never stops ringing. the telephone never stops ringing.
help?
bored..
today's the first day of school, and as usual, nothing quite interest me.
esp english lesson today. i think i simply hate the feeling of being restrained.

stupid monkey's disturbing me at msn. ah~ no choice? entertain him a little. otherwise he'll go nuts.

i think i'm happier now that i'm back in school to study.
jiajun is so farney, yee jin is trying to make things farney, minjee is still lending a listening ear..
hey, dont get me wrong, i'm not sad.
just that, i'm, tired of singapore. i cant wait till 19. i want to go to BERKLEE'S COLLEGE OF MUSIC.

i love Band.
i love Dad, Mum, Sis.
i love music.

2008-06-11T23:07:00.001-07:00

hello(:
back from my holiday..
and. ouch.
almost 2 weeks gone!
well, it hurts.

let's see..

i've got a whole lot of things i wanna do.
1) practice my guitar
2)play piano until i go mad [ lol, it just happened just now...]
3)play badminton
4)run in the botanical gardens
5)learn to play the drums!
6)clean the whole house
7)read

phew.
i think out of seven, i'll at least try to fufill all but i think i'll only get 5 done.
haha,
i hope i'll get all done.
the part about the drums is difficult.
where'd to get the money to learn?
i cant possibly ask my mother after she had payed so much to get me a new piano..
and i dont think i have the space for a drum set..
sigh.
i wanna grow up faster!!!
even though i hate it.
lol, so contradicting.
well, i think thats about it.
take care!

2008-06-11T23:07:00.000-07:00

2008-06-02T23:22:00.000-07:00

i'm sooo tired!
especially after camp.
i just couldnt help but to sleep.. and sleeep....

goodness!

i'll be leaving for japan tomorrow.
and yep, i'm no tleaving without a few songs from the click five...
whoooooooo~!

2008-05-30T01:08:00.000-07:00

i really think that i'm so selfish.

nat almost fainted, during the camp.
me?
i stood there, shocked.
to make matters worse, i was the nearest to her.
i'm sorry nat.

hello people.
nat is my group's instructor for the camp.
she's nineteen! kinda young...

had fun,
i'm really exhausted. i'm mean, who doesnt?
this time, i'm not gonna type about the camp.
cos i want the sec ones to get surprised!
LOL, brace yourselves for the adventure juniors!
ah
pointless anyway, others would post about the camp in their blogs anyway..

i think i love the camp fire the best.
i've never felt so high before.
kinda rare to see me high right? LOL, well sec twos, some of u saw me getting high already.
the rest?
hahahahahhhaaaaa
you'll have to find a way to see me high again.

seriously,
i dont enjoy keeping a expression-less face lah.
it's just that,,
i dont have anything to say or do.
when i stare blankly at something or somewhere,
i'm poundering over something.

enjoy the holidays! (:

2008-05-22T00:42:00.001-07:00

heyhey,
the electric bill ain't cheap anymore so, erm, i'll be typing most of my posts real short. sorry!(:

yep, today's interesting(:
we finally got the reply from ms chew.
ahhaahhaa,,
you wont be seeing me in school from 14/7/08 to 19/7/08.
i'll be off in shanghai..(:
PRAISE GOD!
i'm really happy.

the cake we ate at ms yap and ms bay's farewell party was great.
oooohh, i'm such a glutton.

lots of people helped me made stars today as well.
thanks guys!
especially eugene. it's my first time seeing him doing this. as in, helping out...
lol,
i mean, he's always being annoying and all those stuff.
today, he helped to fold stars. and he's really good at it.

1. At what age do you want to marry?
at the age of twenty three!

2. Who are more important to you? friends or boyfriend?
Friends!! (:

3. Who are the persons you trust most?
jiajun, minjee, lynette, jacqueline

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
erm, not reallyy..

5. What do you hate?
nothing..

6. Do you believe in seeing rainbows after the rain?
YES!

7. What is your goal for this year?
for someone to receive christ.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
YES!

9. Have you felt really empty?
sure. yesterday. cos i'm used to be really busy and i cant really take sudden boredom.

10.What feeling do you love most?
sunshine happee!

11.What are the requirements you want from the other half?
uh, crucial ones: patient, not easily angered, honest, faithful to GOD.
in really crucial but still important: tall { well, i really do mind!}

12.List five best friends of yours.
jacqueline, jiajun, minjee, lynette, yiray

13.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
of course! certainly!

14.Do you like S.H.E?
i guess they're still pretty good singers.. but i prefer the click five!

15.What do you think are the most important things in your life?
GOD, mum, dad, sis

16.Do you love anime?
sad to say, i dont.

17.Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
she's really nice and cute! (:

18.If you were granted one wish, what would it be?
well, none. i love things the way it is.

19.If you can rewind time, when will you want it to be?
nope, i wont rewind time. i love things the way it is.

20.Do you love yourself?
i love those around me more than i love myself.

Instructions: Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their tagboard that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all:D

thanks for tagging me this aisyah! (:

as for the 8 people,,,
i think whoever wants to do this thing, help urself.(:
cos i cant really decide who to choose.

take care! (:

2008-05-21T00:59:00.000-07:00

hello(:
came back to post again cos' i come across something.

why are ppl so biased?
is it the why i dress or i look?
why are you guys always forgetting me?
when i say hi, your faces never fail to be dull. and then in the next moment, you turn to someone else and smile all over again.
please tell me why.
note: all these are really my feelings. please try to understand
i try to help. and then, always end up in someone's so called blacklist.
i'm sorry... did i say anything to hurt you?
gosh.

people pretending to be who they arent//
c'mon we see that all the time that we hardly notice anymore.
i'm not saying that enthusiasism is something wrong, but in a way when 'over- used' , it's horribly disgusting.
i dont know. maybe i'm over-reacting again.

i never liked all those fashion stuff.
i feel comfortable with what i'm wearing.
opps! wrong dress code young lady.
i'm sorry mam, isnt this party supposed to be fun? cos i doubt i would have any fun when i'm wearing those high heels, hideous outfits.

i'd love to be friends with you, but at this rate we're going, it's a NO.

it's your birthday?
oh, ya know,
i think the best present i can give you is my friendship.
dont get me wrong but, everytime i tried to give someone one present,
it's always being laughed at.
i gave my classmate a piggy-bank as a present when i was in pri 5.
i got laughed at.

"in every joke, you'll see that someone is being laughed at"

i really dont mind being laughed at when i'm telling a joke, but this?
not a chance.

when i dont smile, i have nothing to say.
not that i'm quiet, fierce or anything.
note: i only get angry when you disrespect me. i get upset when you misplace me in your hearts.

time's ticking by...
it's gonna happen at anytime.

humans arent perfect.
God is perfect.
i cant stop myslf from typing : " everyone's biased" but, i can at least stop myself from saying that i'm emo.
teenage angst?
geez, i'm not really sure about what that means either.
take a flip from the newspaper. dozens of these stories.

conclusion: we're getting selfish.... why?

2008-05-21T00:31:00.000-07:00

hmm..
so erm, i got my art paper back.
gosh.
thats another A off the results slip.

c'mon we havent got all day//
i've been waiting and waiting all day long for straight As already.
and i'm getting exhausted.
work hard!
...
...
wrong.
it should be: work smart! (:

anyway, i think i did my best.
did i?

school smelt of the usual boredom. it's the same everyday.
dragging our feets across the quadrangle.
making lots of noise.
watching movies.
gosh.
we can do better than that, cant we?
i was somewhat.. dying already. help anyone?

i wanna do something. anything. just wanna be busy.
i wanna start something. like maybe.. a rock band or something
i can almost play the guitar fluently now.
piano? no probs dude.
~~anyone want me in their rock band?~~

yesterday's band practice was amazing.
i finally cleared the hamster in my saxophone.
wonder whats that?
ask allison.
talking about her, i miss her!
and by the way, i'm sitting beside her.
i dont want her to go!!!!!!!
please... dont go first stand...
and there's zheng yong.
he played tenor.
{dont worry allison, the three hours are over and i wont be sad anymore.}

hmm..
now we're talkin'.
there's something to work hard, aim for, wait for now.
SWISS WINDS!

i'm gonna work hard. {and smart ofcourse.}
and i will.
now.

2008-05-15T23:03:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna read.

i dont know, maybe after the debris of the chinese exam earthquake.
gosh.
i mere 2 more marks then i'll acheive my straight As... not counting art of course... i havent got it back yet.

PRAISE GOD!!
even though i didnt get straight As..
my other subjects were still acceptable. but as for mum, i dont think so... well, i guess she sets higher standards than me. i'm gonna use my brains more now. (:
i think the main problem of scoring bad for chinese was my lack of exposure to chinese words..
hmm...
i'm definitely gonna read more now! (:

haha, and i therefore conclude..

I CAN DO BETTER! (:

hmm, how about typing about the day's events?
here goes.

we watched "coach carter" during CME.
....
.....
...

okay.. i'm really getting impatient.
sorry, but talking about the day's events is really.. boring.
so, urm..
i shall talk more about my feelings now. (:

PRAISE GOD!

2008-05-15T02:01:00.001-07:00

LOL
i forgot about my ~~own results~~ ..
sorry!
so erm, postin' about it now.

lol
wait waitttt!
before i start.
i think i'll tell u sth first,
YINGDA, U SHUT UP ABOUT MY MARKS
YOU TOO RIVARIO.
JOSHUA U TOO.

let's begin then. all full marks is 100

EL: 17.2
maths: 78
science: 58.8
hist: 58
he: 07
lit: 17

LOL
pretty bad? okays, find the pattern then..

okay luh
enough of the suspense
LOOK!

el: 71.2
maths: 87
science: 85.5
hist: 85
he: 70
lit:71

2008-05-15T01:30:00.000-07:00

well, as usual.. here we'all go again.

1] aiya.. go away luh.. i'm emo-ing

hoho, this is what we'all see after every exam.
c'mon guys, change that. be happy! study hard... i know for most of you is like .. down in the dumps, seriously, if u think you're good, you're good.

oh please, i'm really.. really.. not talkin' crap. listen to me for once okay?

i realised that many of us are getting more "negative". if there's one thing in your lives you would want to change and start everything again, what will it be?
the shoes, the clothes? the house, the cca, the class? or maybe, THE EXAM RESULTS.

you're gonna do it once. so just, do it. mug all the way, and, i'm sure the results will definitely be good.

believe me please.

gosh, do i sound like a ~~nag~~ ?
well, if i were you, i'd probably just scroll down and find one link to escape to.
rude?
oh well, i'm used to people walking out on me halfway. sure is hurting, but, what can we do?
i cant force people to listen, or force people to do things they dont like.

maybe we're changing as individuals... from adolecents(teenagers) to adulthood.
maybe what the experts said was right.
teenagers most probably want to create a self-image and rebel.
i agree.

i found myself arguing with my mother from time to time now.
i didnt know why i did,
i just felt that my point was right, and hers was wrong.

now i know i had always been in the wrong.

2008-05-12T00:08:00.000-07:00

LOL i've been singing the click five songs again and again..
hahhha
and pah-lease... dont ask me to sing.

my favourite is just the girl, summertime, i think we're alone now.
LOL
go youtube and listen then you'll know.
&i still cant find the guitar tabs for these songs..
:(
someone help me!

2008-05-08T23:58:00.000-07:00

does anyone knows how to read guitar tabs?
i need help!
ahaa,
thanks!

2008-05-08T21:23:00.000-07:00

God considers death an enemy. He came to destroy death and give us eternal life. And the more we walk in the grace of God and His righteousness, the more we will reign in life. The more we believe His grace or undeserved favour, and the more we know that we have been made righteous by His blood, and not by our good behaviour, the more we will reign over sickness and death!

the above passage is from new creation church!
PRAISE GOD!

today's home econs paper was still okay.. i knew how to do most of the questions. for those i didnt know how, i merely scribbled all over... :p

i am going to dedicate this day to God and play the guitar. so that i can play in the music minstry in church.
PRAISE GOD!

2008-05-07T23:57:00.000-07:00

i realised that ive been typing faster and faster
is that good or bad huh? i guess its because i've been playing piano for at least 1.5 hours per day now. haha, good exercise for the fingers? lol, somethimes, i beg to differ. my accuracy in press in ivory keys aretn that good yet. maybe i should start playing the scales [although i hate it cos it's boring..]
i've been gaining weight too. PRAISE THE LORD! yay, at least my hard work of eating and eating has paid off...
i hope my dream of getting straight As comes true.. the only thing that worries me is english. it's so unpredictable.. sometimes i get good marks and sometimes, i dont. it's upsetting....
i wanna revive my dream of playing the guitar again. i usd to remember all the chords and stuff. but now, i've completely forgotten because of the exams i guess... haha, i'm a self taught guitarist.. i've been listening to the click five as well, they're great! i guess that play a part in reinkling my passion for guitar and rock bands. amazing? well, i love them (:
the science paper today was okay.. 75 marks will be good... haha, just enough to secure me an A1 for SA1. there's one question that i didnt know how to do... and then, after the exam, the answer came to me. frustrating? totally... gosh, 4 marks gone... i'm glad i love chem, cos most of the question were on chem (: haha mr damian, i didnt let u down did i?
when the exam ended, mr teng sadi that ms chew wanted to look for us [ swiss alpha] regarding the shanghai trip. okay, let's track back i lil'. me, shaoyi, yongyi, jonas and victor took part in the swiss science challenge lower sec, and... we won! now, the fruits of our labour.. the shanghai trip! seriously, i was quite disappointed that only 2 or 3 ppl in my grp would be joining the sec3 winners for the trip. why cant we go together? we're a team you know.. sigh, dad and mum will surely say yes, but miss chew? God, i leave everything in your hands now..
gosh, i spent 5 mins typing this already.. haha, there's so much things to say..
onward!
is this too much to read? haha take ur time. although most of u who come here normally target the tagboard and the pictures.. haha, that's fine too. i just wanna type... so that when i look back and look at this post again, i'm sure it'll be nice.
let's talk about what subjects i wanna take in sec 3.
it's official, i want triple science and elective geog.
yep, working hard now, A1 for maths , science and geog [although there's no geog now..] i'd better get at least an A2 for hist. A1 would be better though... haha, do i have high expectations? i dont know, compared with those smarter than me, i doubt so. my theory teacher says that i'm stressing myself. uh, not really.. i slack all day. look i havent clean the floor today yet cos i wanna blog. haha, secretly ofcourse.. my mum would never let me use the computer like this...
i wanna cut my hair already.. should i? the ends of my hair are showing signs of dryness...
i wanna get a diploma for piano soon, cos then, i can learn another whole new instru.. i think guitar,, cos i dont think teaching myself works.. or maybe i can take up a guitar course in my piano sch.. ok then, what instru should i learn? hmm.. i think either flute, trumpet, trombone, violin, the drum set.. which one? haha, we'll see until then..

2008-05-07T22:55:00.000-07:00

uh -kay,, the blogger thing is working agian!!

i can upload pics now..

haha, if you're wondering whose fingers are that... ... it's ally's. i took it at the NCC affirmation ceremony.. ok.. so for today... i'll be uploading pics! (:

haha, AMETHYST! our dear SL..

okay, this is allison..! whose fingers appeared earlier.. haha!

we took this on swiss serenade.

hoho,, shin chieh.

mika.

yep.. i have more but, i promised them[the peeps] not to post it in blogger.. haha.. there are some others too.. so, STAY TUNED!

LOL

2008-05-05T23:35:00.000-07:00

haha
i felt like posting again
i SIMPLY LOVE THE CLICK FIVE!!!!
i wanna go to their concert, but, eh, i doubt mum allow.
talking about the click five reminds me of justin and aiyah.
aiyah is my pri school class mate and she's got the tix. ahahhhhhhh~
justin is one of click five fans, like me!
ahah
poor guy, he's got fever. haha, take care luh.
although i hate u sometimes cos ur so annoying, ure still okay.. [i guess?]
LOL

pastor rony preached something about losing ur faith and backsliding
there are 8 symtoms,

1. being self-centred and selfish
2. being hyper sensitive
....

...
...

there are more,, but i forgot. i wrote it down but, i gave the notebook back to mum.
i shall post it when i get it back

i decided to talk about this because justin fits the second criteria.
being hypersensitive.he's complaining of how badly his mom treats him. having fever all of those stuff... just like what pastor had said. and pastor rony said that if u have one or more of these symtoms, u are getting further away from God. and by the way, justin is a christian.
God will have his way.

gosh,
i really love the click five. (:

2008-05-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

there's something wrong with this posting posts thing.
i cant post a picture! the font are pretty weird and when it is being posted, it seems fine.
can somebody help me with this?

gosh.
maths was okay. not really as difficult as last year's SA2 paper 1.
haha, thank God.
hope paper 2 goes as smoothly as well. (:

i dont really feel like studying now. wonder why..
i feel like making puppets, art and crafts all those stuff. but i cant.
priorties first! but at least i got the housework done! yup, cos mum was at home in the morning. now she's at work.

sis really has to be educated in saving paper, electricity, water and not wasting paper.
c'mon, she's 7. how can she not know all that? i told her many times already.. well, i guess she's still small. and yeah, she lacks dental care.

i miss my saxophone. c'mon, it's been ages since i last touched it! i miss my fellow librarians too. i miss falling in [ okay, well maybe not that much]. and i seriously look forward to the free-style drill!! haha. talk about hating drills? well, i guess not.

LOL? what am i saying?

i miss the band room. i miss allison sitting on my left, jingyin on my right, lynette behind me and saiful DIRECTLY behind me. well thanks man saiful, it was tough sitting infront of u, you were way loud.. haha, joking? i miss shouting at yingda for my instrument. [ well, not really ]. i miss getting my lips all red and swollen after band practice. i miss meesing up justin's hair. i miss the sectionals, although i kinda hate the heat of the venue. i miss the marches and the songs we play. i wanna blast NCC song. i want to tongue hard at the starting. i miss making the files with bojiang. haha, still can rmb how he had difficulty squeezing the score in the plastic. it was hilarious.

yee jin was so funny when walking to the bus stop. he was explaining to me about how the math question was done. he told me last year that his math was bad, and now? wow, what a genius. he thought of the things i never thought of. ahhaa. then, i rmbered the being nocturnal thing he and yingda told me about. it was way hilarious too.

kong!kong! kong! kong!
ah teng arh! *wake up ler!!
kong kong kong kong! i paid my school fees alreadY!!
kong kong kong kong! ah teng arh!!!

{ lol? this part was when what happens when ur nocturnal. having lessons in the middle of the night.}

*this part was translated in eng. supposingly in mandarin.

for further continuation, consult yingda or yeejin.

2008-05-05T22:35:00.001-07:00

You Should Play the Piano

You are a true music aficionado who loves many musical style and eras.

You find music to be an escape. And you'd like to be relaxed and comfortable when you're making it.

You're very innovative, and you have a unique way of knowing what may sound beautiful.

There's a strong possibility that you could compose some of your own work songs quite easily.

While you have a lot of creative energy, you are also serious and conscientious.

Your musical talent needs time, practice, and lots of privacy to flourish.

Your dominant personality characteristic: your painstaking attention to detail

Your secondary personality characteristic: your natural tendency to be whimsical

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

2008-05-04T23:23:00.000-07:00

the history paper was... quite 'unstable' i guess
i think there's a possibilty of me leaving out some points.. but then again, oh whatever!
it's over and i did my best.
i cried at church yesterday. i just did. pastor tim was praying for me and tears simply welled up in my eyes. today in the examination hall, or class, i could feel God's pressence. dont ask me how, i just did.
God i leave everything in your hands now.

2008-04-29T23:25:00.000-07:00

hah.

why am i fretting? somehow, i'm worried. i'm worried that i cant teach the juniors well..
oh GREAT. now your senior is fretting simon, chelsea, goldfish// where is my voice? i cant talk as loudly as before. i guess i've stopped shouting at my sis as well.
i wanna motivate. i wanna TEACH. that's my passion. to see people grow. i wanna help. i wanna play. i wanna ... do something. what is it that makes people listen to coach carter? it's simply... magical. while watching coach carter's videos on youtube, i realised something. his voice. deep, yet people wanna listen. and then i realise, i'm listening as well.
i went to watch dan brown's vidoes as well[ pogobat in youtube ]. there's something with his voice as well. he seems to be enthusiastic about talking about his feelings, yet, not over-zealous.
i'm begining to feel like.. help? kenneth, amethyst, help. please..
i know u want us all to be independent. but, i still cant get the hang of it. i cant really seem to recall how the seniors taught us.
i know that we must be bold, never afraid to speak out. somehow, whenever i tried to, no one hardly ever listens. am i a joker or what, huh? tell me about it.
am i really quiet? but somehow millions of thoughts are rushing in my mind. like i'm talking to myself. i dont know.. just .. talking. it goes on and on...
like, help again?
everytime i really tried to speak out.. just, casually, people will think that i'm serious.
vice versa.
i lended mr teng my scissors. still. no expression. just.. thanks.
whatever happened to all the smiles? huh?
c'mon, be happy?
everytime i tried to be happy, stupid yingda will come along and somehow, just somehow, brush it off with an insult. hey, wanna challenge? just go away. and stop hiding your humiliation with something funny. it's disgusting.
well, i'm complaining again huh? i dont know, it seems so unjust for me just to bottle everything up. you know me, i'm never the keep-quiet-and-do-nothing sort. sometimes i wish i arent. because i'm afraid of doing anything rash. not rash as in.. cutting your self with a penknife. rash as in, shouting and screaming until... until everything goes off. in a wat it's tiring. but, i'm glad that i've let off steam.
the exams is another infuriating period. what can i say?
...the revenge of the teachers. hah. i had this english teacher when i was in p6 and gosh, she was extremely biased towards those who scored good marks.. c'mon, whatever happened to equal treatment now? and then, there was this one FINE day when she decided to change MY partner with someone else who is lazy and irresponsible. FINE, right... FINE. like help? i'm pretty sure my face was expressionless when she changed the seats. guess what, she humiliated me infront of the whole class, saying that i was showing attitude by giving her a so-called 'black face'. hah. she framed me. obviously i couldnt take this lying down, but just she wait and see. i'll get top marks and prove u wrong. i scored top for english at year-end. she just gave a smirk and praised the second, saying things like," WELL DONE!!!!" right, WHAT A FINE DAY. as time drew closer to PSLE, she praised the quiet students, saying they are hardworking and is sure to score at least 230 and above. right, she proposely missed me, trying to signal that i'm lazy huh? guess what, i scored 238. hah, you are one teacher that i'll NEVER forget.
just about a year ago, i went back to SV to register my sister in the school bus thing. i saw her. she saw me. my mother was there. that teacher obviously saw me and turned away. my mum called her name, she turned around with a forced smile. although my mum never saw it, i did. my teacher was still hating me. and when my mum told her that i got into swiss, huh. she was shocked. c'mon, a person with your definition of stupid like me, doesnt mean he's stupid.
maybe i'm being paraniod. but i'm certain that she dislikes me. her eyes gave her away.

THE WORD "FEAR" IS NOT IN MY VOCABULARY.

2008-04-29T00:01:00.000-07:00

why are the words so weird???

haha
o.o

dan brown's videos on youtube are like.. funneh~

as for the update of the exams..
quite stressful, all the bombing of questions, the heating on the frying pan. oh where was i? the exams.. LOL. been speaking quite off the the topic lately. my mind keeps drifting off, or am i thinking too fast for me to speak? oh, whatever. like what some people said, im just crazy?

oh great, what am i saying?

2008-04-17T23:15:00.000-07:00

i've just realised that sleeping more doesnt make u more alert.
you see i was using the computer yesterday during my so-called nap time.
and yet, instead of overwhelmed by fatigue as usual, i actually felt so awake at night. Amazing? HAH.
Another testimony had made me really really REALLY HAPPY!~ today was THE day that we received back yet another test paper. this time was chinese.
i felt... sorta.. scared. my chinese, especially higher chinese, not really that fantastic. I prayed for at least a 36/50. guess what? JESUS GAVE ME A 36/50. I was really really happy ! this isnt the first time already. i prayed for at least a 16/20 for science test... and... i got it!

PRAISE GOD!

gosh..
how may days left? 10.
helpp? i've studied half way already.. just a few topics here and there...
i really cant understand one problem...
why do we have to take history? why do we need to study HE? why do we need to study geog? huh? i just.. just dont get it.
another issue:
why am i wasting time at home using the com when i need to study?!
this is hard.
i need to think.
why?
there are so many questions i've yet to ask. questions that has nth to do with our exams.
what is plastic made up of? how do we get plastics?
how are phones getting smaller and smaller? are the wires getting smaller too?
why do we need to wear socks?
why do we die?
why do we have hair?
where do ideas come from? how do we think?
how many stars are there up in the sky?
why is there magnetic force?
where do electricity come from?
how do we walk?
how did english come from? what about maths?

2008-04-17T02:02:00.000-07:00

gosh..
its 2 weeks away from the exams! And, i'm still troubled over my rubiks cube{ the 5x5 one}
helpp! Is there anyone who knows how to solve it?

i feel so.. not-normal without band practices... i cant keep track of the time, date or day! You see, there's band practices on every tues, fri and sat. without band practices, i'll forget what day is today. [ dont worry, i know what day is today, although the blogger's timing is seriously wrong. it's thursday right? 17/4/08. its written on the whiteboard] helpp! i do hope band practices resumes soon. But, band practices can never be the same again... amethyst, madeline, jiakai, saiful, gayatri[ or chi-dog ], xueer, peilin, ganteng, maria, kailing, adil, joan have all passed out. I know i'll miss amethyst and madeline. i'll miss saiful and gayatri too... i'll miss ganteng, maria, and peilin because i used to take bus with them... *sigh* Without band practices, i'll have this horrible headache that will only go off when i sleep. annoying: 100% I cant seem to concentrate during class as well... i guess its due to the fact that i slept too much... [ haha, i havent changed one bit, have i?]

The weather had been kinda warm lately...
What now? Global warming? helpp! i cant tahan the weather anymore. Where's the rain?

SWISS SERENADE had been kinda fun.
We made it! (:
the band sounded good on YMCA. Especially those guys behind me, the trombones, euphoniums[ hey lynette! yes, i can hear you guys already] , tenor sax, bari sax, bass clarinet.

2008-04-09T01:29:00.000-07:00

GRR
dad just bought another handphone
why???!~!!!
he promised me a sax...
i've lost count of all the phones he had already..
!!
he's such a spender.
!! geez.
i want a sax, not a guitar again.
p.s i dont even know how to play a guitar lah!

2008-04-08T07:47:00.000-07:00

my goodness...
i didnt know chelsea brings hp
i didnt know yensheng was so zilian
i didnt know yitian was so forgetful
they need professional help :P
haha!

2008-03-25T06:54:00.000-07:00

i'm so frustrated with my fingers.
i cant seem to press the correct buttons on my sax and piano! G R E A T
now, what do i do? serenade' coming. gotta practice.

how can i succumb into a horrible sound????!!!!
H E L P// i just dont know how to go about it. yeah, my piano teacher always say practice. but, how do i know whether i'm practicing the correct way? in the end, i'll always end up in playing the wrong thing.

2008-03-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i posted..

i'm so tired.
group projects seems like individual work
i hate it
some people in my group like to push all the work away
giving stupid excuses when they know it isnt gonna work
help others and yourself la
the rest are doing you a favour by not complaining to the teacher already.
why cant you help?
we're not gonna be there for you always.
maybe i should leave the project undone until the night before its due,
cos then, in this way, you'll panick.
but, come to think of it,
i shant stoop so low to your level.
okay, maybe you arent that bad.
some others are far worse.
just say when you cant handle it so i can divide the work equally.
not wait until the day its due.
i really hate this
you're wasting other people's time
and because of that project guess what,
i got scolded and didnt have enough sleep.
and as a result, you spoiled my chance of doing well for the chinese test.
i know you want to do better than me badly..
reading all of the materials i've got.
but, seriously, if you wanna do better,
just focus on YOUR OWN RESULTS, SET YOUR OWN TARGETS.
not others.
if you insist on doing better than others,
you'll never will.
never set anyone as your target, cos,
you'll never know where you'll end up.

overall, it all comes to the same thing : selfish.

2008-03-03T06:08:00.000-08:00

2008-02-24T02:14:00.000-08:00

so soorryy for the frustrating/sad/emo/angry/offensive post the last time..
forgive me?
really, seriously, forgive me?
so sorry for making you guys buy the tickets that you didnt want to..
angie, so sorry, i didnt mean you.. the person i meant was a guy..
so sorry..

quite upset over the tickets luh,
but, i was quite stupid i guess.
its just a few tickets... not my life..
i guess i was really, really dumb to only realise that now..

okay, onward! (:
time to leave those things behind..

pooh! once again, i sound like a car horn again..{as in saxophone}
ah!!! should i bite harder, or loosen my mouth?
or should i change reed? since its already damaged...

2008-02-21T00:21:00.000-08:00

oh, i'm back again..
so frustrated with my class.. they're so.. heck-care..
when i look in their eyes, they're filled with hate and a lil' mixture of love,
so sad...
and erm, not all the people luh.

okay, enough about that.
let's talk about the swiss serenade tickets..
am i that detestable that no one wants to buy my tickets and rather buy from YD? look, he HAS enough sold tickets already.
you promised and then said no.
at least say sorry??

then the lit dramatisation.
asked somebody whether can join the grp, cos of minjee.
then, said yes, then no.
at least a sorry?
you always come to me when you need my help, or else, push me aside.or worse, didnt talk to me for at least a week. or maybe, turn me away when i ask for help.
sounds familiar?
thats because i've repeated it again and again, and i CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!
what can i say? you guys are biased.
another thing that i'm frustrated about.
my class.

some people [ i didnt say who okay?] behaved.. erm i dont know.. a lil' like crap in the canteen and got scolded by one of the teachers. guess what, i happened to walk pass the group of teachers and i could feel that they were disappointed in 2E3. can you guys at least behave better? you're forming the wrong impression, and the rest of the class HAS to suffer with you guys. not happy? come find me. we'll trash things out. guess what? i cant take it anymore, sooner or later, i'll just completely shut off from the world.

i know i look like a complete retard. but, i have my own dignity okay? stop taking my things and give me that sheepish look. stop pulling my hair. i am not worth bullying, cos you'll be in serious trouble. either way, you're gonna lose.

sorry for the so-called emo/angry/frustrated post.
i cant take it anymore luh.

2008-02-14T00:12:00.000-08:00

hello peeps, i'm back again!
haha,
you'd be seeing me posting and then disappearing again.
busy, with school work.
so, yeah, i'll be coming and going..

there's so many things going on these few days, so much that i dont know what to start with.

ok, i shall start with this then.
1. looks can be so deceiving.
i was walking from the bus stop back home again as usual. then, i spotted a well-dressed guy in one of the void decks. i was like: whoa , not warm meh? aiya, see your face, so guai, should be not problem luh. but, what i didnt realised was that he held a cigar in his hand. i was shocked... so young and he smokes... yup, and so, looks can be Very Deceiving...

2. never assume anything.
and so, today is valentines day right? pah~ so i didnt really think it was that important to anyone, so i didnt prepare anything to give to my friends..( sorry!)
but, (haha "but" again..) when i reached school... people kept showering gifts of all sorts... sweets, chocolate, lollipops... you name it. i felt so paiseh.. because i had nothing to give them... so, guess what i did during reccess... ( i was fortunate that i brought coloured paper to school today for lit) i fold cards or rather, i made them and gave them out to those who gave me something. haha, next time, i'd better bring something..

3. never idle around
haha, this a good one to talk about..
yeah, anout 2 weeks ago, i was "suffering" from a break down, just because i didnt have enough sleep. you see, mondays and thursdays are my " free" days, so i was supposed to finish what i could finish right? haha, as you know, i'm quite lazy(that's why i'm looking for a husband you knows how to do housework, haha, joking luh.)so i tend to waste time and take my time doing things.. and then, i couldnt finish my home work and i slept late.. so, really, DONT idle...

so thats about it. cos i cant think of anything else to write(or type) . everytime i 've thought of something to write, it ALWAYS vanishes when i sign into blogger.. sorry!

and sorry xiao wen, for making you fall so hard...
sorry jiajun, for all the purposely insults :p
sorry yongchow, for not kicking ( or snatching ) the ball when it came so near
me.
sorry justin, for messing up ur hair everytime i see you.. ( but its fun!!)

2008-01-21T00:43:00.001-08:00

i want a new rubiks cube!
yeah, after what victor did to my old one.
hey, both of the cubes are the same age and one looks older..
take a look:

ah!!!~
the one on the right is the one done by victor.
ok, never mind lar.
he is gonna buy me one more anyway,,
thanks!! (:

2008-01-13T23:15:00.000-08:00

why is the world changing?
its so sad when you walk past a group of students spitting vulglarities at someone else.
guys pierce their ear when they are not supposed to.
girls wearing their skirts short.
students who dont go directly home after school.
wow, what a change eh?
i guess what mdm tang said during assembly was right.
always do the right things lah.
that's why i stood firm when i still see loads of people tucking out their shirts and folding their socks.

during the sec one cca orientation i was desperately looking for water.
haha, sadly, i cant find any sec one to talk to lah.
they are all roaming about. its hard for me to speak to them ..
and i would have to say,
darren, if you should one day join band and get into trouble elsewhere,
i'm so sry i cant shield you.
like what happened with xiao wen.

there's nothing more i fear than going home alone.
like today,
which is 14 of january,
i had to stay back for a short while to do the music thing with minjee.
and sadly, i cant anyone to go back with.
i really dislike to go home alone.
all those prying eyes, and stares is enough to make you go mad.

these few weeks had been tough.
music, band, debate, piano, school, home.
i dont know whats up with my mum .
well, i expect her not to be biased, but i was right.
EVERYONE IS
BIASED.
i asked her why she kept scolding me for things that i didnt even do and why she praises meimei for every bad thing she does.
she said that mei needed encouragement to grow faster.
i was like: if that works , why didnt you praise me in the past? and i still grew all the same.
and she blamed me for the messy table.
the truth is, all the trash or books whatever you call it, belongs to mei.
and to make matters worse, i was ill, how do u expect me to clean the house?
i need breathing space you know, i aint any useless robot , totally devoid of feelings okay?
i'm still alive. why do you have to do this.

talking about being baised,
i can talk until the next sunrise
its all the same.
people always, or rather, to make things fair, sometimes, leave me to clean up the mess.
I AM NOT YOUR MAID.
why do you have to do this?
cleaning up the section area is always me. howard and zhengyong always run off.
group work. okay lah, most of the time its always me.
i had to do the job.
once again,
I AM NOT YOUR MAID.
then when i'm sick,
and i cant do ur job well,
u blame me.
!! what is this?!
I AM NOT YOUR MAID

2008-01-10T01:54:00.000-08:00

urgh,
time to move again.

there's no time to do music..
iam so frustrated.
no time to do maths or read science.
tell me, what should i do?

2008-01-10T00:41:00.000-08:00

hellos.
i'm so bored, and i'm having fever lah,,
i hate getting sick,
and like what rajeev said, i ALWAYS fall sick at the wrong time.
urgh, it's cca orientation today! and i cant go...
and i wonder how's min jee coping without me... fine i hope.
its mummy's birthday yesterday, and she bought a chocolate cake! haha, cos its my favourite.
my pastor once said that children in well-to -do families often fall sick easily, because the devil is angry that you are living so happily. and so, the devil makes you sick.
curse that devil.

okay, here's what happened today.
at about 4 am in morning, i felt so cold lah practically shivering ler..
so, i dug deeper into my blanket.
and when i woke up at 6.00am as usual, my head hurt so much that i cant think.
aiya, as usual, i always have headaches
so, i plodded slowly into the bathroom to brush my teeth and that was when i realised that i felt like fainting
should i go to school today?
i was scared that i might faint during the cca orientation and wouldnt that be embarrassing...
so, i ran to my mother's room to ask her whether i was having a fever.
and yes, I WAS HAVING A FEVER.....
so, that was it. i CANT go to school......
then i went back to my room and feel asleep again..
until 1pm i guess..
then my mother bought me to see the doctor.
and the doctor said i may be due to the food poisoning i had days earlier.
why was the hawker so unhygenic?!
so i told my mother that we shoud should report it to the ministry of enviroment,
and my mother was hesitating..
urgh,
now, cos of that hawker, i'm having stomachaches , cough and fever.
help! i wonder if i could still hold on if i dont get well soon........

2008-01-08T22:44:00.000-08:00

its almost sec one cca orientation!! yays!
i'm SO lookng forward to it.
i guess because i can see my junior again and talk..
although i doubt he'd stand still and listen to me:P
he's quite mischievous.. wahahaha...
hope he'd join band!
(:
today at school was fine..
though i have to say that something happened a few days ago and i'm still thinking about it.
pretty sad but, i hope i dont regret again.
i LOOVVEE the new korean girl in my class..
she's so quiet and is always following me around.. haha, at least i've got company...(:
lessons were pretty same but what had struck a chord in my heart was literature..
as usual, mr yoong was talking away and joking..
when he reached the part where juliet stabbed herself, i looked at the picture and stared.
oh my gosh,,,
erm, when i was young i used to wonder how it felt like when someone stabbed herself
and today,i felt it.
its like a sharp object touching ur skin and then it pierced suddenly right through it and in the next moment, there's numbness all over your body and then,, ur in another place
ouch, i could feel the pain lah.. :(
after school, i was waiting for jiajun cos, there's no one else who take the bus except for yingda.
it's really lonely to be waiting for the bus on ur own.. so, i waited for him and he waited for yingda.
urgh, and peanut need to hand in the class diary and all those of stuff... so long lah!
we went off first.

ok then,
byebye peepos!(:

2008-01-07T00:54:00.000-08:00

oh, how i hate being biased..
i dont know why, cos.. its unfair.
god created us in his own likeness, so, everyone is unique. why wont u guys stop hating each other?

i saw ah meng's brother..
in 1T1..
he was quite tall the last time i saw him.
and when i saw him again, he shrunk!
ok, or maybe.. i grew taller! (:
hmm, i really hope he'll join band.
he looks like a cornet player.. and did i mention that his brother , my friend, is a tubist? from CT winds..
okay, kinda dangerous putting this guy in our band right? oh! never mind....
and by the way, i saw the saxophonist guy again...
okay, i'll try to treat him as fairly as i could...
i thought he would be quite tall, but when i walked past him [ again] he seemed quite tall...
oh,, anyway,
byebye..

2007-12-26T00:43:00.000-08:00

what can i say..
i'm bored.. [again]
so very bored
my home work is such a headache..

2007-12-19T01:17:00.000-08:00

i have totally nothing to post about today.
feelin' quite empty.
yeah, that's really about it.
i dont like talkin' what happened the day before..
i hardly look back i think..
everytime i think about it, i'll more empty..
oh sheesh..
horrible feeling.
really need someone to talk to right now.. ain't in the best of mood//

i've been trying so hard to find points for my debate homework..
hard luh-
tough life, cant find anyone to talk to..
nothing goes into my head if you tell me something now..
i'm oh-so-bored. habbo and maple dont really facinate me anymore..
am i growing up?
i asked my mum this question before, about why i dont feel like playing habbo and all those stuff anymore.
and she told me that i was growing up.
i wonder if its real..

2007-12-09T23:25:00.000-08:00

ive got a whole lot of things to do..
wonder when will i get them all done..
band camp is coming up and..
oh sheesh,
i havent go time to practice my piano,,
and i just got scolded by my piano teacher for not practicing enough..
grr...
and who's to be blamed?
ah~ let's not talk about that part shall we?
messy bussiness...

list of things to do:
1. clean the floor/
2.pack the bed/
3.clean the stairs
4. look after my sis
5.do holiday hw\
6.theory hw
7.piano\
8.wash my shoes/
9.pack/clean the cupboard
10.dust the shelves
11.fold clothes/
12.iron clothes
13.do assesments
14.pack for band camp/
15.wash the toilet/
16.read library books\
17.read newspaper/
18.find solution to 5x5 rubiks cube

ok, timeout..
that about it.. i guess..
horrible..
those with / at the back are done.
those with \ are neary done.
so tell me,
being a kid aint easy...

2007-11-01T17:59:00.000-07:00

there's band later on!! (:
i'm afraid that mr chew will get angry cos of trombones again...
hey guys, buck up will ya?!
i mean, they dont sound like how they sounded months ago...
ok, i myself will have to work harder too!
sec 3s are passing out next year..
i'm really afraid,
i'm afraid that the juniors next year will be like zhengyong [yeah, that malaysian is still ponning band...]
hope that the juniors are all girls...
eh, nono....
too many gilrs already...
oh, never mind...
we will know next year..(:
oh, i'm still worried..
am i a good junior?

uh! it's time to get a life and move on!
my regular G sound weird.. got one teh.. sound. horrible...

hmm,
i think when i'm sec 3,
i'm gonna take triple science!
and BTW, whats elective geog?
i really have no idea of what my ambition is..
when i was like about 4,
i wanted to be a doctor..
and yeah,
it lasted till this year ( i found out that i've a phobia of blood)
and this year..
i thought perhaps i could be a scientist.. or a teacher? erm,,, a musician?
i'm not really fantastic in music, but, i'll work hard..
hopefully..

my sister cant read!
tell me what should i do?
i've been trying hard to teach her but she's always so hyper.
and she's only six.
grr...
whenever i teach her, she'll go :" eh.. i want to sleep."
then when pa comes home,
she'll be like an angel..
{help!}

2007-10-28T20:38:00.000-07:00

hello(:
i've havent been updating, i know
jacqueline's in taiwan, i think
it's the holidays, and i've only got my band friends and maths olympaid with me..
boo hoo~
lot's of things i've gotta do.
hmm, like holiday assignments and housework.

Pa is not very happy with my results..
He said i could get maybe top ten in the level if my languages were better.
yeah, i know,
what can you exect from a person who don't even read the newspaper?
in this holiday, i plan to study a few things that are outside the syllbus..
eh heh heh..
i'm up to no good again~ wahaha
have you guys ever got a feeling that someone is trying very hard to overtake you?
whoa, yes.
it's scary..
don't blame me for not telling you about my study methods... I've my reasons..

enough of that.

ms tay left..
liew in her place.
i felt kinda weird though...
it's okay anyway..
yee jeng is the head prefect, and as for pearl, well, being vice isnt so bad after all.. :P

And yah
i've changed my handphone no.
come to me if you want my no.
(:

2007-10-18T00:47:00.000-07:00

people here are just so lazy..

i dont wanna elaborate anymore cos its really disappointing..
there's simply no efficiency at all..
sometimes i really give up.
no amount of enthu is gonna work in here.

ok, enough of that.

yesterday when i was at the bus stop outside the sch,
wei ming and jonas came walking along and told me that they had found a file on the mud or soil..
then they handed that to me..
minhui came along and i handed it over to her..
then, i had to take it in the end..
we found a letter concerning the sec one enrichment addressed to TAY SHI HAN.
we were like:" huh? shi han got keep all those songs the lyrics meh?"
cos we also found some lyrics of jay chou songs inside..
eh, whatever, i just took it home..

as for today,
we watched ella enchanted during home econs.
didnt get to the last part though.
we had to leave for recess.
i didnt really enjoy the show cos i seriously need the toilet to pee.
but the storyline was great.

we had to stay in class during music.
did our own things..
mr teng came to take over the period.
had the maths game again..
i got 19th.
ha!

after that, i suppose it was mr wong's lesson..
the he gave out the formal letter writing exam paper back to us.
i got 21/30
could had gotten one mark more..
cos my format was wrong.

then blahblah//

here are my overall results:

english: 65 B3
maths: 75 A1
science: 75 A1
higher chinese: 62 B4
history: 77 A1
geography: 72 A2
literature: 75 A1
art: 70 A2
d&t: 80 A1
HE: 79 A1

eh,
my eng and chi pulled me down!
i think xiao wen got 9 distinctions and 1 B..
so clever loh..
oh sheesh...
gotta study hard next year,
cos i didnt really study this year :p

2007-09-28T03:07:00.000-07:00

Your Aura is Red

You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage.
Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works!

The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures

Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez

Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourauraquiz/">What Color Is Your Aura?

2007-09-28T02:50:00.000-07:00

had the paper ones today..
still okay lah..

stupid yingda..
this time is real, I REALLY HATE YOU

2007-09-27T01:36:00.000-07:00

so bored..everyone else is studying.. eh, dont get me wrong, i'm studying too! oh~ my literature grp got the worst marks in class..

we didnt rehearse..

oh well, its gone isnt it?

2007-09-26T01:35:00.001-07:00

well, that was kinda reasonable.. cos i already play the piano

2007-09-26T01:31:00.000-07:00

You Should Play the Piano

You are a true music aficionado who loves many musical style and eras.
You find music to be an escape. And you'd like to be relaxed and comfortable when you're making it.

You're very innovative, and you have a unique way of knowing what may sound beautiful.
There's a strong possibility that you could compose some of your own work songs quite easily.

While you have a lot of creative energy, you are also serious and conscientious.
Your musical talent needs time, practice, and lots of privacy to flourish.

Your dominant personality characteristic: your painstaking attention to detail

Your secondary personality characteristic: your natural tendency to be whimsical

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatmusicalinstrumentshouldyouplayquiz/">What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

2007-09-25T01:24:00.000-07:00

today was nerve-wrecking.....

i got so nervous during vocab test

i was worried i'll get worser marks than before.

then, when the test ended,

i realised i got 19/20

ok..

i was like thinking: oh~ someone sure get full marks.. i'm doomed! my english marks will suffer!

then..

mr yoong was like asking who highest..

xiao wen said 17 or 18..

i cant remember..

either one of the scores is hers and yongyi's

then, i just told mr yoong i got 19.

he was like: "orh, ok"

then he paused.

" huh? ok.. the highest.."

during maths..

it was time to give out maths test.

O.o

i got nervous again.

my hands felt cold, or rather, i felt cold..

mr teng announced that there were 4 full marks.

everyone was like:" aiya, sure jay hui.."

the first name announced was yungjin

then, wan xin, victor, RIVARIO

i got 26/30 luh..

): careless mistake!!!

its okay..

i got A1 overall.. :p

some things made me laughed recently..
here's one

yingda :" super cup noodles!! (:"
daryl: *giggles*
yingda:" super cup noodles, now with noodles!"
daryl: *laughs*
yingda:" super cup noodles, battery not included."
daryl:" huh? battery for what? cannot eat."
lixian:"that's preciesly why batteries are not included."
yingda, daryl, jiajun, me: *laughs*
yingda:"good point."

oh~ i still find it funny..
the noodles thingy was "invented" after kit exchange during the holidays.
daryl, yingda and bojiang bought THAT noodles and this joke came out..
ha!

2007-09-21T00:11:00.000-07:00

it was the first time i felt scared speaking out in class..
and
it was the first time i saw his true colours..

maybe he was right..
saying that i should say what i wanna say and not waste the time of so many people
and then, he gave me that look

please dont pass negative judgements on me before you know me.
i know you are starting to despise me
because i have this tendency to fight back when someone bullies me..
i know you think that i'm someone who is rough, unruly, uncouth, rude
here's what
i guess maybe you're right,
but that doesnt give the right to show your displeasure...
you are always siding him,
have you ever thought of what had caused the commotion?
you are always showing your displeasure to others.
have you ever thought of their feelings?
making them hurt before you even know the cause.
you mind is one sided, never flexible.
what your good friends says are always right, you never seem to believe others.

whenever someone helps you and you realise they're "not good"
you treat them like diposible items,
you push them away, never wanting to talk to them.

2007-09-14T19:57:00.000-07:00

ok, i've gotta clarify something.
i somehow clicked and clicked and ended up in natassia's blog.
do i have the same birthday as her?
cos she wrote there: 3/10/91
and my birthday just happened to be: 3/10/94

2007-09-14T19:43:00.000-07:00

oh~
i'm back at school.
yeah, finally
i'll tell you why, cos i have fever for 4 days and doctor wanted me to take blood test.
well, scared i've got dengue ofcourse. there's nothing anyway.
went, and.. ouch! it hurts!
now, the vein on my left hand is larger than the one on the right.

ok, so .. i've got back my chinese and science paper.
i've passed chinese! thank god! (:
science,, i anticipated that score. not that bad actually.. missed the full score by a few marks:p

lots to catch up now. anyway, its still sec one. i still can relax..
the only thing im worried about is when the sec threes pass out and.. we'll all die!!
ok, what an unfortunate thing to happen...
so, i'll need to work hard! but , with this cough going on, well.. thats gonna be tough.
i'm gonna miss band. that's for sure..
my mother is so.. to put it simply, she hates band.
oh~ how could she hate band?! she was once a band member before.. and a trombonist at that.
now, she tries to get me out of band when i fall sick..
now you guys know why she asked the doctor for mc...

2007-09-08T22:15:00.000-07:00

oh!~
i feel sick..
what am i talking about..?
i AM sick...
oh,,

let me tell you about the first doctor i consulted..

doctor: " ya, got fever.. must drink more water.."
me: [thinks] uh.. i'm not a 水桶
me:" okay"
doctor:[ looks at my fore head] "hmm.. going to have acne.. must cure soon.."
[doctor shows me a poster about acne]
doctor:" see, you are at the first stage.. when its gets to the fourth stage, like this.. very difficult to cure.."
me: [thinks] whoa.. want money again?... haha...
doctor:" ya, must buy this to cleanse your face, and this, after you've cleansed your face"
me:" ok"
me: [thinks] whoa! 我有这么准?! i knew it!! he wanted money!!
doctor: "ok.. i think that's about it! bye bye.."

haha...
i really didnt know coming to see the doctor for a cure in fever could end up having a cure for acne...
but, i still got my cough and fever medicine from this doctor..
then later that night[ which is on firday night] i cough so hard that my mother wanted me to consult the second doctor..

he was kinda' rushing..
appearance didnt really looked like a doctor..
but anyway, here goes..

second doctor: " hello.. sit down."
[i sat down]
doctor: " open your mouth"
[i opened my mouth]

* ok, i shall skip this part.. or else , it'll get boring..*

doctor:" hmm, got fever, heaty.. must drink more water.."
my mum:" doctor, is it because of her instrument in band? blow in got virus right?"
doctor:" ya, dont blow anymore until recover.."
doctor:" so, i give her mc for band for 2 weeks ok?"
my mum:" ya, must give arh ."
[i stared at my mum]
me: " huh..."

then, that doctor gave me medicine for cough etc..

so , i'm so sorry that i cant turn up for band.. ):
forgive me okay?

2007-09-05T00:41:00.000-07:00

cranky days are here...

i dont know why but when hoildays comes along..
i 'll get awfully cranky..
the pestering starts...
i'll get annoyed

2 days wasted..
went for kit exchange on monday

here's what happened after kit exchange:

me and rajeev were walking
some{ obviously, yingda, daryl, bojiang, thomas}ppl decided to follow us
what's the use anyway..
you'll get nothing..
and the stupid me..
i got angry{dont know for what}
then, screamed for the whole neighborhood to hear

then. at home..
sister took my pen..
i got angry..
cos, i really hate ppl touching my things...
screamed at her.
she cried...

on tuesday...

i'm stuck at home..
with grandma and sis
my granny is one lazy person..
and do you know how old{or how young}she is?
59
aiya..
i dont wanna talk about this..
she keeps pushing all the house work to me, knowing that my exams are coming and i need to study..
she expects me to cook, clean e house, and take care of my sis all the time?!
then, sis is one big trouble..
when playing piano..
" jie jie!!!!!! i want to eat ice-cream!!"
{looks at her}" ask mummy first"
{picks up phone and calls}" mummy!!!! i want to eat ice-cream!!!"
{comes back}" oie! mummy say can.."
{groans}" ok lar"

-a few minutes later-

"jie jie!!! i want to eat bread!!!"
{screams at her}" OIE!!! I'M PLAYING PIANO OK?! WOULD YOU LIKE IT WHEN OTHER PPL DISTURBS YOU?!"
{shouts back}" OIE!! HOW DARE YOU SHOUT AT ME!! I'LL TELL MUMMY!!!"

urgh!
unreasonable girl...
and one more thing..
she's only 6.

for today....
out of laziness, granny didnt even come
knowing that i'm at home.
stuck with sis AGAIN!

-at breakfast-

"li hui, eat your noodles"
"wait lah.."
"eat.."
"wait lah"
{groans}"YOU WANT TO EAT OR NOT?!'
"OK LAR!!!!! I TELL MUMMY YOU SHOUT!"

unreasonable girl..
let me remind you again..
she's only 6.

then, later at lunch...
same thing happened...
and i had to cook for her..

-nap time-
"li hui, time to sleep lurh.."
"wait lar..."
"now."
"wait lar..."
{drags her into her bed} " now, you're in ur bed, can you PLS sleep now?"
"huh..."
then, she jumps around...
then, i started getting cranky..
"OIE!!!! YOU WANT ME TO SHOUT FOR THE NEIGHBORHOOD TO HEAR ARH?! SLEEP NOW!!"
then,
"OIE! I TELL MUMMY YOU SHOUT!"

unreasonable girl..
ok, once again..
she's only 6.

i'm really cranky...
so, yingda, i would really appreciate it if you would quit being such a hypocrite...

2007-08-31T00:49:00.000-07:00

ouch, i feel hurt... :(
its enough, okay?
ouch...
so sad...
people take me for granted.
{ i'm not saying who, okay? otherwise, i'll end up hurting other ppl}
oh...
i know that i look stupid, a girl who's easily pushed aside...
but please..
dont do this to me, i'll feel sad...
when i'm sad, i'll make life hell..really hell

no point trying so hard luh..

peeps take you fer granted..
when you leave, they treat you as king..

e whole world's like that..
cruel, inhumane

but! :)
some of them are not! :)
i'm glad...
friends beside me, thank you so mucch!! :)

still sad luh..
here's what:

i'm no pushover
offend me,
i give you slient war

2007-08-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

let me tell you about friday..

okay,
i rushed like hell when it's 12.40
i rushed to eat my lunch
i rushed to get changed into no.3 uni.
saw joanne on the way when rushing to class
she said that she could accompany me to change
okay, let's go!!
then, after changing, joanne asked me to go to her class room to wear shoes and tie hair.
ok..
let me go to my classroom first.
ok,, i put on my shoes in her class and went back to 1e3 to tie hair..
thanks xiao wen for tying up my hair!! (:
ok..
me and ameera rushed down to band room.
then, found out only a few ppl were there.
chey, rushed for nothing :(
anyway, we were early! :)
ameera dragged me downstairs to the canteen to buy food.
she said that she havent take her lunch cos she go and but hair net.
okay,,
followed her anyway.
then went up band room.
we were then asked to bring instruments downstairs.
then blah blah ..
usual stuff.

went to AOH rehearsal and then those not like really involved were asked to sit at the lecture hall.
yep, so i went there and talk...

then blah blah blah...
the end//
haha!
leave the rest for you to guess

2007-08-23T02:28:00.001-07:00

okay..
i'm back!!! wahaha...
nowadays i always laugh for no good reason and go mad..
hmmm....
eh.. ok.. i shouldnt talk too much.. it's getting thirsty somehow...
ahaha..
the CME project makes me laugh like hell..
when we were discussing the thing, jj and victor talked about the names they were gonna give themselves..

eh,
like: bobby dick and dick dick??
hahaahah!
i think i laughed for abt 5 minutes...
er.. what could i do? sit down there and be tua pek gong?
heh... okay..
wait wait...i just need a moment to calm down...

hahahahahahhaahahahahhaahhahahahhahahhaahahahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahah

OK ,DONE
damn funny loh..
went home with my friend.
(:(:
{smiles}

the CME thing damn lame...
haha!
for example: "guan ni arh!!!!!!"
so like jingkai!!

when doing the project, giam cai chased somebody into my class
then i dontknow what happened then he dragged the poor guy out..
so pathetic!!

then the CME project..
jj and victor dont know why "labled" me as mdm junaina...
then, i become-d the old woman...
damn funny!!
{giggles hysterically}

2007-08-19T01:28:00.000-07:00

hellos!
one week since i posted x)
havent had the time to post..
lets say..busy?
with, piano.. enrichment.. sleeping.. sms-ing {whoops! wasting money again x) }
yep.. lots of things going on..
army open house rehearsal up next..
couple of tests.
and HOLIDAY!!!
well, thats gonna take sometime...

urgh!!
i sound like a car horn when playing my saxophone. ):
drats!! how did i let my sound become like that??
should i tighten my embrouche when playing high d and e? cos, i REALLY sound like car horn.
it hurts.. especially my mouth..
ouch...

2007-08-13T01:14:00.000-07:00

okay!
time to rise and shine!!
BAND tmr!
ok finally, i'll get to ask xueer about my name tag.
because i went home early on tuesday cos of my cough+flu+sore throat.
hmm..
i think must buck up in band.
zheng yong in way ahead of me..
i mean, he could memorise things very fast.
): sad...
i think i must be the worst in my section.
my high d got problem, everytime must blow doubly hard for that note.
kenneth told me that he had that problem when he was in sec one.
okay, nothing to do with embrouche x)

school never fail to surprise me.
i mean, qi jiang and company always sing their songs and get into fights...
and a different song each day...
you'll never know what to expect..
and then in the mext moment, you'll see yunxin getting frustrated..
haha (:
like what had happened today.
jiajun's spec is a miracle.
the lenses had cracked and he still can see through them..
amazing,
if it had been me, i think i would rather go specs-less then walking around with my specs damaged :p

i havent been reading newspapers lately..
oh gosh..
anyway..
i always read life! the horoscopes and stuff
haha! (:
reading the straits times..
hmm,,
not my type.
the political stuff and most of the time i ddont know what they're talking about..
i had always loved it when my mother comes back from work with the feng shui magazine.
haha! (:
creative science okay?
yep..
i loved palm reading.
sadly, i cant remember a thing..
so sorry...
:p

2007-08-08T02:31:00.000-07:00

yo people!

my habbo room much better?

haha.

today had national day celebration.

but the band cant be seen!!

they are somewhere up there??

2007-08-06T00:31:00.001-07:00

haha~

my habbo room,

and hey hey,

this is only 1/4 of my wonderful assets. :P:P

okok.

enough boasting.

anyone can help me arrange my furni?

thanks!

2007-07-30T00:37:00.000-07:00

i think the many things that had happened made me hair all going to fall out.
damn stressed ..
please guys, dont make me an a-ma. say the same thng over and over again.

something happened today.
saw qian bian person walking past my class during literature.
then, a sudden flash of headache..
AW...
lasted till now.
then, during mdm junaina lesson on CD, she gave something out.
i'm not gonna say who got it or what is it. cos some people will , sort of broadcast.
anyway, i dont know whether to feel sad or happy.
i was shocked.
shocked...
cant be me right?
however, it was me.

banana had to take photos during assembly.
so, jayhui they all took care of her bag.
i took care of shaoyi's.
damn heavy.
i wonder whether if she bring gold to school.
seriously, its VERY heavyy

then, walked down the stairs with jay hui after assembly.
saw huiqi .
saw justin filling up his waterbottle.
saw edwin.
saw jiajun at the bus stop.
said goodbye.
then i went up bus 187.
saw bojiang
saw junyuan.
saw ruen.
saw yeejin
saw....
nobody else.

then, i reached.home.
ahh~
finally..
my head very pain.
AW...
u qian bian person...
haish, gianna said that i should forgive.
should i?
ok,
you're forgiven.
the second time already..
prove me wrong..
aw~~
i shan't say anymore.
me head hurts a great deal.

2007-07-29T07:38:00.000-07:00

ok i'm back!
getting quite lame nowadays.
haha.

ok i'll shall start talking a bout friday.

it was sports day.
and as usual, i met up with ruen go to the stadium.
then, met up with wenqi.
reached the station and met angie, geraldine, xinzhen, yilin, jayhui etc.
went to the stadium together.
then, went into houses.
urgh!!
boring part starts here!!!
haish,,
seriously, i think i should join..
):
sitting down there doing nothing really bore me out.
but, as i had predicted, it RAINED!!
everyone was soaking wet when we reached the MRT station.
went for lunch with lynette, daryl, ying da, justin, zhexi, bo jiang, tunleng, emily.
actually wanted to go and eat mac.
but then dont know why daryl brought us to somewhere else.
ate maggie and waffles.
then, lynette, daryl and yingda and zhe xi went to school first.
dontknow where the heck bojinag is anyway.
but then justin and tunleng and someone else went with me later. (so sorry i cant remember who)
but during eating the maggie i saw somebody very qian bian.
i HATE him lar!!
fold socks think i dont know arh?! think very cool ?
ok. i am not gonna say anymore about him.
went to 1e5 class room.
saw daryl and zhexi playing chess.
decided to play iceman soon after.
wahaha!
run all over the place.
only managed to catch daryl. :P
then justin stole my water bottle and had to run after him.
then went for band...

2007-07-22T03:53:00.000-07:00

ok.. by the way,
this blog will be viewed by invited readers with effect from 20 august.
okay?

2007-07-22T03:48:00.000-07:00

ok..
i'm getting kind of stressed up lately..
erm..
lets say, cos of SOME PEOPLE?
ok, i'm not gonna pinpoint who's that.
horrible..><

OK PEOPLE.
let me repeat again.
and especially to those with... ya know.. erm.. short term memory?
I DONT LIKE JIA JUN..
ERM.. clear??

2007-07-18T07:30:00.000-07:00

i wanna sleep!!!!

2007-07-18T06:58:00.000-07:00

i got pissed off by somebody today.
apparently she DIDNT wanna play her debt.
wa lao.
no wonder everybody dislike her so much.
jing kai didnt come today!! (:
i loovee it when he didnt come..
wahaha..
anyway, its a good thing.
that weird guy..

before enrichment i was looking for amethyst.
desperately!
cos i wanted to hand in the band photos money.
so, i went around looking for sec one band members to ask them whether thay had handed in their money.
finally,
i found charman and jieqi.
they told me that i should go to amethyst class to look for her.
uh-huh..
thanks! (:
so went to look for her and..
she was having classes.
):
eh..

so after enrichment went to look for her..
with..
heh heh..
me not telling..
then.
madeline saw me and said that she could hand the money to amethyst..
yay!
thanks!(:
ok..
then..
talk ..
talk..
then,
reached the bus stop.

2007-07-16T00:49:00.000-07:00

ah..

me having headache..

i CANT think straight today..

Awww

fell asleep in chinese lesson..

ZZzzzZZZ

ok, maybe not really sleep but, i cant think properly.

same thing for science..

thank goodness i didnt fall asleep in literature.

i think its because people were presenting.. and i had to give them respect..

HAD nsw training..

apparently many people had forgotten,,

lets say,

erm lynette? joshua?

yepps.

how could you had forgotten?

i mean, tmr is the competition ler..

ah, but anyway,

yunxin nearly forgot until i told her.

and i pestered her to teach me trombone.

she didnt look like a trombonist right?

hahha.

me and yingda were talking about who in our class would play what instrument when they join band.

it was hilarious.

jiajun will go to oboe.

yee jin in percussion.

vanessa in either flute or trombone.

hhaaa,,

okk,,

lame..

2007-07-12T00:08:00.001-07:00

my sis and i {ok... i look weird}

i HATE thursday.
erm..
and , i HATE yingda.
stupid..
why didnt you tell me earlier????
make me so angry...
>:(
and jia jun, i DONT like you arh!!! go away..
and please.. girl guides ppl, DONT pester me to buy cookies..

band tmr,,
should i talk?
aah.~
and hor, rajeev! you HAVENT teach me yet.
my stomach hurts..
aaaw...

and guys, please...
dont say anymore..
i am not interested in anyone..
which means...
i WILL NOT have a crush on anyone..
i SWEAR.
wanna bet?

lynette,, go love your william
yingda, go love your shi hui..
just leave me alone!!!!

go away...

2007-07-10T02:02:00.000-07:00

my god...

so sorry i ripped this pic from jing yin's blog!! :P

haha, you wont mind right??

ok lots to say..

anyway, my blog could use some pictures rather words.. (:

ar,,,

PIANO EXAM TMR!!

oh gosh, i am so nervous..

during band i squeaked lots..

2007-07-09T06:57:00.000-07:00

ah`
i still feel bad. very bad.
:(
i wanna know why i turned on the taps right?
at first i held my breathe for very long.
i tried to control it.
well, that is.. until...
yanting came along and..
i cant remember muchh..
i just felt very sad..
then, several droplets fell and one go and i decided that it was time to let go.~
ok, most of you know what happened next so i wouldnt wanna continue.

charman, thanks for cheering me up lar,,
with that glass door thing.
so funny lorh!! (:

joan, i tell you why i listened to kailing.
cos i am a little bit afraid of her. :P

thanks madeline lots and lots!
thanks for letting me turn the waterworks on.
thanks for speaking up!

jiong han, i appreciate your singing :)
but can you not sing it so close to my ear?
very itchy you know.

peiling, thanks for your jellybeans! :)

2007-07-01T18:31:00.000-07:00

ai hia hia..~
feeling kinda lost.
is rajeev the one who's transferring?
aiya~
okok.
i admit, kinda sad lar ok?
:( one sec one lesser.
one less person to see during band.
can he dont transferr?
is it because of me?
cos i scolded him..
ah, never mind..

i rather keep dumb in band nowadays..
just dont make me do what i've done a year ago.
whoa man!
i didnt talk to anyone for the whole day ok?
i was just so upset with everybody
i cried like 6 times yesterday.
whenever i think i even going back to school or even going for band,
tears filled the place.
HUMANS ARE BIASED!
i really dont wanna say this but, EVERYBODY ARE BIASED
stupid,
since nobody listens to me,
i SHALL keep dumb during ALL the band practices and lessons.
nobody appreaciates right?
okay, i shall not talk to anybody from now on.
its final.

2007-06-28T01:11:00.000-07:00

haha,
another post
viewed other ppl blogs just now,
though i had lots to say but,
I FORGOT!

PIANO EXAM COMING.
really dont know how i am gonna survive

sometimes i really ask myself.
will the band survive?
i worried ya know
i just came into band and this HAD to happen.
lots of things happened lately
didnt wanna actually say it out.
daryl, will u STOP it?
its really pissing me off
yingda, will u shut ur mouth?
i cant stand it anymore.
i told you, i am NOT interested in him.
no hard feelings yah?
lynette, i dont want to really say it, cos seniors are viewing this blog.
i told u , i DONT like him!
haish,,
stop it okay?
its driving me crazy!

one more thing,
do i really look like zheng yong?
seriously, i dont see any resemblence

LITERATURE PROJECT IS GIVING ME HEADACHE!
i cant let them how i want the project to turn out cos they dun understand a thing i am talking..
*MOANS*

ENGLISH ORAL SPEECH SEEMS FOREVER!
sad lah,
mr yong didnt come yesterday
so, didnt have oral presentation.
should had let mr wong handle the speeches.

ITS ALWAYS COMING HERE TO MOAN.
WHY CANT ANY THING WORTH REJOICING HAPPEN?

MOANS.

URGH!!!!
SO ANGRY!

GOD, HELP US WILL YOU? DONT LET THE BAND FALL...PLEASE.
AS A SEC ONE, I CANT WITHSTAND THE PRESSURE.